ME!!! ME!!!

Fulfilling my obligations to Xena and JaneDoe.

Here goes:

4 jobs you've had in your life

waiter - i miss the simple life.
tuition teacher - a test of patience.
soldier - when life was structured.
freelance copywriter - still doing it.


4 movies you could watch over and over

秋天的童话
hackers
about a boy
love actually


4 TV shows you love(d) to watch

anything from Discovery Channel.


4 places you've lived

Ceylon Road
Duku Road
Lorong Nangka
Lorong Tua Kong


4 places you've been on vacation to

Britannia
Hibernia
Albion
Azeroth


4 places you would rather be

- a place far from civilisation where I have a choice not to be disturbed.
- a place that I can grow my own crops and meat.
- a place where man lives in harmony with the land.
- a place where man does not make life such a complicate and tedious affair, where life is simple.


4 of your favourite foods

wonton mee - easy to eat. so I can just gobble it up and go back to my game.
chinese carrot cake(black or white are both ok) with extra egg - favourite breakfast, lunch, dinner or supper. nutritional value is questionable though.
minestrone soup - thick and spicy vegetable soup is good for you.
chawanmushi - no japanese meal is complete without it.


4 websites you visit daily

bloglines - blogs and news.
wow - happenings in azeroth.
google - self explanatory.
jobsdb - looking for out of the ordinary job to break free from serfdom.


4 tagged

The virus ends here.  ¶


11:24 by aberwyn 3 comments

At times like these

At times like these:

The world seems brighter,
the colours, livelier,
the politics at work, inconsequential.

The rain brings a touch of romance,
the morning sun, a new beginning,
the clouds, possibilities.

At times like these,
I do not need the whiskey glass to make the world seem better.

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10:04 by aberwyn 2 comments

1963

It was January, 1963
When Johnny came home with a gift for me
He said 'I bought it for you because I love you
And I bought it for you 'cos it's your birthday, too'
He was so very nice, he was so very kind
To think of me at this point in time
I used to think of him, he used think of me

He told me to close my eyes
My gift would be a great surprise
I saw tears were in his eyes
He never meant to hurt me
Oh, God, Johnny, don't point that gun at me
There's so many ways our lives have changed
But please, I beg, don't do this to me
Johnny, don't point that gun at me
Can I save my life at any price?
For God's sake won't you listen to me?

And though he was ashamed that he had took a life
Johnny came home with another wife
And he often remembered how it used to be
Before that special occasion, 1963
There is too many ways that you could kill someone
Like in a love affair, when the love has gone
He used to think of her, she used to think of him

He told me to close my eyes
My gift would be a great surprise
I saw tears were in his eyes
He never meant to hurt me
Oh, God, Johnny, don't point that gun at me
There's so many ways our lives have changed
But please, I beg, don't do this to me
Johnny, you keep on using me
Can I change my life for any price?
Oh, Johnny, won't you listen to me?

He told me to close my eyes
My gift would be a great surprise
I saw hatred in his eyes
But he never meant to hurt me
Oh, God, Johnny, don't point that gun at me
There's so many ways our lives have changed
But please, I beg, don't do this to me
Johnny, you keep on using me
Can I change my life for any price?
Oh, Johnny, won't you listen to me?

I just want you to be mine,
And I don't want this world to shine
I don't want this bridge to burn
Oh, Johnny, do you miss me?
I just want to feel free
I will always feel free

~ New Order

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It was back in 1987, when I was an angsty teenager, that I first heard this song. My peers were all crazy over True Faith ( I believe 1963 was released as the b-side of True Faith) but somehow this song stuck to me me every since I heard it the first time. Not that I dislike True Faith. In fact I thought it was a brilliant song accompanied by a ground breaking MTV. Somehow the melancholic undertone of 1963 touched a nerve inside. I supposed the main reason my peers refused to embrace this song, even though a few of them admitted they like the song, was due to the reason that the lyrics seem to have a homosexual undertone back then. Most of us were rather homophobic at that age, coming from a strict Catholic school too.

These last few days, I found myself humming the song silently in my head again. I decided to search the net and found out that the song was inspired by a conspiracy theory that the shot JFK took was actually meant for his wife, so he can live together with Marilyn Monroe. So, there is nothing homosexual about it at all.

I do find myself drawn into the situation, feeling the joy:

"He told me to close my eyes
My gift would be a great surprise.."

followed by distress and a lost sense of helplessness:

"I saw tears were in his eyes
He never meant to hurt me
Oh, God, Johnny, don't point that gun at me
There's so many ways our lives have changed
But please, I beg, don't do this to me..."

However no where in the song could I sense anger at "Johnny" for his betrayal. Could this be what they call unconditional love?

Since 18 years ago, whenever I listen to this song, I was haunted by the same image of a dark-haired woman, with trails of tears on her face, looking at me in anguish, emanating disappointment, with no trace of anger.

I always wondered, whether this was the look my mom gave my dad almost 32 years ago, when he walked out on her, leaving her a broken woman to pick up the pieces of the family...

"There is too many ways that you could kill someone
Like in a love affair, when the love has gone..."  ¶


17:52 by aberwyn

Sleeping Tiger

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17:08 by aberwyn 1 comments